Sunday, June 7, 2009

I know that i must suppress the weird feeling, but sometimes, i juz feel that i, alone cannot stand the immense pressure. Even though i know its best to talk to someone, but i found that being alone is better to calm the feeling down. Each day i am passing by, its like a battle ground. My mind is like fighting... non-stop. I feel tired each time i reach home, although sometimes there is nothing much in school on that day. My mom said this to me lot of times and i wonder if i am one... she said," Fadly, you think that you are "superman"? Even holiday also got acctivities!!". I ... juz feel hopeless sometime, however i must do what must be done... even though i know it will hurt the person feeling and mine. As a leader, i know there will be sacrifices...i must be strong, but i juz cant seem to do it alone... and sometimes i juz feel sick... Following dumb rules and orders.